Tomorrow is New Year's Eve, and as usual, I'm thinking about my resolutions. Or, more specifically, re-solutions since I've made these promises to myself year after year in one form or another. Being a little introspective these days have helped me to decide which resolutions I'll keep in the coming year. And I'm making five. Five changes for the better.
I was reading over my rants in my November posts, and realized how petty and silly I sound. Yes, yes, stupid really pisses me off. Ignorance grates my nerves. Arrogance grits my teeth. Argh! Stop. Breathe. Calm? Okay. Now listen. Repeat after me. I CAN'T HELP HOW OTHER PEOPLE ACT. I CAN CHOOSE HOW TO REACT. Is getting upset worth it? Is getting bothered healthy? Nope. So this is resolution number one. Don't let stupid get me mad. Be a duck. Roll it off my back. Don't succumb to the pettiness and ignorance that surrounds me. C'est la vie.
Segue into resolution two. Since I'm not letting stupid bother me, I'm not letting ugly get to me either. I'm really going to try to see beauty in the everyday trek of my life. I consider it a good day when I hear and can spot one of our neighborhood mockingbirds. I'm going to treat each day like a mockingbird day and be aware and appreciative of my surroundings. And if my surroundings at the moment suck, then I'll try to get to new surroundings!
This coming year is going to be "The Year of Frugal Living" at my house. I really need to pay down my debt, get my credit score up and start saving. No more needless spending. No more LIRR. Bring my own breakfast and lunch. Make my tea at work. Try thrift store and eBay for absolute neccessities. Try to sell stuff on eBay and Etsy. Actually go to the gym I'm paying for. So, if you want me to have lunch with you, make sure you're paying! lol! Resolution number three.
Resolution number four is a dumb one, but I think it will have an impact on my mood, and how people perceive me. I stopped wearing makeup to work. I wear my sneakers and Uggs into work and never change. I also wear jeans frequently. I always told my ex-asshole that the reason he never got a promotion was because he always wore white gym socks with suits (something about sweating...) Well, I'm guilty of the same thing. I'm not saying if I put on makeup I'll get a promotion, but who knows what people think when they see that I can't even be bothered changing out of my sneakers, or clumping around in my boots. I need to put my best "face" forward.
Resolution number five is big. I've been neglectful taking myself and my family to healthcare. We need to see some doctors and the dentist. I'm fortunate enough to still be employed, so I'm going to take advantage of my healthcare and get everyone checked up. Phone calls start the week of the 5th. Dentist, acupuncturist, GP, Gyno, Optical- it all has to be done. I can't rely on Dr. Evelyn, my Chiropracter, to cure everything!
So, I don't think this list is too traumatic. I keep thinking back the "The Secret", where the theory is if you throw good thoughts and karma out to the universe, good stuff will come back. I tend to be negative and bitter (no, really!) so it's time for a new mindset. I'll have to keep reading this post to remind me. Over, and over, and over!
Happy New Year! What're your resolutions?